last week of PST. transition starts next week. gawd, things are getting more tiring. and i need to exert an effort to go through this freakin' training--and transition.

waa. there are so many things to memorize, so many procedures to get myself familiar with. yes, in due time, these will all come second nature to me but the thing is, that "due time" is yet to come.

how to deal? presence of mind. grace under pressure. yep, i learned that from DevComSoc but i think it's different here. suddenly, it seems like i'm no good at all. i just did another mock call earlier and i sucked. i did not suck that much but i sucked. period.

now i'm thinking: "is this really for me?"

oh well, i guess i just have to hang in here. adopt a new mindset. i am so sorry i used to think this job is so freakin' easy. and for those people who still think that way, please don't let me know it.