Why can’t I be happy today and still be happy tomorrow?

Why can’t I be happy yesterday and still be happy today?

Why can’t a good thing happen one after another? Even for, at most, two consecutive freakin’ times.

I am so fed up with being happy this day and being extremely sad the next day.

It’s always the same freakin’ way.

What’s wrong with me? A wrong state of mind? A rotten past life? What have I done so wrong to deserve this kind of life?

I mean, I love my life, of course. But sometimes, things really get to me.

Mabait naman ako eh. I just need some people to understand me. Hindi ako mayabang. I have really nothing to boast for, anyway.

How can they not freakin’ understand me and what I truly mean when most people not even related to me tell me that I am very transparent?

I just hope they leave me alone.

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Happiness is a state of mind.

Yesterday, some of my wavemates and I hung out in one of our other wavemate’s, pad.

We had alcohol, of course, and shared lots of stories about anything and everything. They’re a bunch of happy people and I was so happy to be with them.

Rico came later in the evening to hang out with us. He didn’t really drink because he would bring us home. He was so nice. We even came to as far as Antipolo.

He dropped me off last in Alabang. During the trip from Antipolo to Alabang, Rico talked about music with me. He loves music, really. I was not in the mood to talk because I was so sleepy but he kept on asking this question one after the other which is good ‘cause I got to know so many fascinating things.

He is fascinating. Well-spoken. Well-read. Very open-minded. And he’s close with his mom. His voice seemed full of love and sincerity when he was talking with her on the phone when she called him.

The training would be over next week and even if I didn’t make it (‘cause the mock call seems hard. It scares me.), the experience would have been more than enough just by meeting and being with my co-trainees and Rico.